So i woke up today feeling like absolute crap, I could not stop crying, but I think I’m starting my period soon, so that might be it and I’ve been super bloaty… SO YES PMS time is coming, A.K.A. pissy mood swings :) Anyways, I went to school and then had dinner at my best friends house, I feel a lot better when I’m out of the house and away from everything or with my friends… most of the time.
But the crappy part is that, I am always thinking about losing weight when I’m with my friends. I’m always comparing myself to them and feel even more crappier because I’m the biggest one out of them, another overweight problem of mine.
COMPARE MYSELF TO EVERYONE;
"am I fatter than her/him?"
"How much more weight am i?"
"I look ridiculous"
"She’s so pretty, I look like a fat oger." :((( <—— that’s kinda common.
But anyways today for breakfast I had: a fiber one bar, fruit bowl (strawberries, peaches, pears, and apples) and a bottle of water.
For lunch: Another fiber one bar, a scoop of peanut butter, and a piece of meat. LOL RANDOM. and water of course.
For dinner: Whole wheat rice, veggies, and teriyaki chicken with an ice tea.
Then my best friend and I went and got frozen yogurt, mine was (fat free plain tart, with 2 tsp of choco.chips. a couple peices of cookie dough, and fresh strawberries and pineapples. (: )
Today I was exactly 39 points! yayyy! :)
For exercise I walked for 45 minutes and did 100 crunches. A step up? Yes :) I’m trying!!
I have about 3-4 years before I graduate, and I hopefully won’t be dealing with a weight problem then. I also was thinking and I have a new way to approach my “losing 100 pounds goal” I’m going to lose 5 lbs at a time, to look at it more of a realistic perspective because thinking 100lbs honestly makes me feel so horrible and nervous, so if I give myself smaller goals I feel like it would work out better. So let’s see, I feel like it would help though but anyways. On to the next day… :)
BRING IT ON WEIGHT, LET’S GO… I’M GOING TO LOSE YOU THIS TIME!!